big girl, don't cry

26/5/06 (fri)

Wake up late.
I still enjoy the breakfast in cafe d' carol.
Repeating the boring duty in the office.

Tired in finding job,I'm taking rest in these 3 days.
But I cried in the toilet near the office because I feel deeply depressed and different unhappy reasons.

I don't care I haven't job (sometime it's a happy thing if having money), but I feel the relationship with God is getting worse and losing confidence with him.Extremely Worse at all!!!

Started to find that Dream is not existing in the world.May be I should say no dream can be achieve in this society! Not the world, just in HK.

He seems changed a lot in this short period from dreamaholic to factaholic.He said "hey, baby you are most beautiful and cute in the world" in the past. He said "Don't say silly things." It seems implict we are too naive in his eyes now. Oh! My heart is broken when he is so cool recently. I know I can't expect he tell me all things. However, I just know he affected my emotion.

Today I haven't lunch and I prayed to God with tears. Please Please Please show me the direction.

I want to go back your wings and protected by you.